i envy twins!

esp pretty ones.. :)

finally my unread 1000++ email has now decrease to 585 inbox messages!
and if some ppl are wondering why their emails are suddenly flooded..
well... oops! guilty! its not like i forwarded everything!
only the interesting things... :)

and my FB friend request of 100++
now still remain 100++
my other request of 108 still remains 108. lol!

i met the girls last night.
well am happy we sat down and talked.
and caring less gives one more power.
its true.

i is upset that he texted me the way he did.
and maybe the reason why i get up each morning brooding over it
could be because i dint have the last say.
so i texted him yesterday but am still not satisfied!

then i realised that it could be because of the way things ended so cold and sour between us.
because it wasnt supposed to be.
pfffftt....

but its ok, am gonna eat my humble pie today and apologise.
and say what i wanna say.
and i dont wanna quarrel anymore.
but that doesnt mean i wanna contact him again.
i juz wanna make sure we end up in peace~

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

CHAO OUTSIDE MOTHA'FUCKER!

people often say things, whether they mean it or not, when they're mad. truth or not, only him and the other party will know. but to air someone's dirty laundry out like that? its just not right, no?

i get it that you're angry, hurt and betrayed but have a lil respect for the other. think about the past and those moments spent together. think about what YOU did in the past and how the other party took it and handled it.

sometimes its nt just about how you feel, its also about how others feel.

yes i admit! i was wrong. i did not ever deny it. i take the blame full swing. for what i did was wrong, i shouldn't have done what i did to you. but its has been a long time coming. we have just been taking things one day at a time. we dont meet often, we dont talk as much as we used to, so tell me, how to fight and quarrel like that? but when we do spend quality time with each other, thats when we will argue. communication wasn't our forte. everything said will always be misunderstood and sometimes we make nothing into something. drama neither of us need. i find it hardest to get my point across with u.

i know things doesnt have to be this way, bcos when i look at my parents and i look at your parents, i just dont get where all the angst come from. after the past incidents that happened, i dnt get how come im still addicted to u. was it cos of the comfort of being with u cos we're been together for so long, or was it really love?

now ive met someone else. someone who complements me and i like that.

we shall see how things goes, cos as for now, im happy.

=)

take care memeeek. i'll nv forget you and i'll always cherish wat we had cos it made me to become a better gf and a better person.

i couldnt sleep at 3am yesterday and read a book until ashri called.
he's been calling me this week at odd hours.
but ill layan him anyway and talk crap.

my plans of going for a jog and buying mom prata for breakfast got cancelled
cos the conversation lasted till 7am.
i did my bed and everything and met hidir at 9am for recording at Laselle.

awesome shit! i get to explore laselle.
checked out how they did recording for their project and everything else.

and then proceed to have brunch and then watch MICHAEL JACKSON!!!! THIS IS IT!
am so sexited thruout the whole movie and sad at the same time knowing for a fact that its gon be the last time ill be able to see a good show of his.

am soooooo into MJ since i was 8.
at 9, i bumped into him LIVE!
a story nobody would believe but only my sister and i knew..
Janet Jackson was there as well..
i guess she was accompanying Michael.

curiosity kills the cat.
not for me.. at least at that point of time when i sneaked into the gallery
and bumped into someone in the stomach.
looked up and saw Michael smiling down at me as he said "hey.."
he had sparkling eyes and a huge face with glitters all over..
Janet as i remembered was gorgeous as she sat down sexily with her scratchy voice
while she spoke to Michael.

meeeoooooowwww!

now that all seemed so faraway.

its juz as good as a reminder.
people die.. and nothing last.

the evening continued with brother driving, getting mad and cursing every now and then.
but i have to admit that some drivers is really an ass!
they'd swerve to another lane without signalling and without the consideration that other drivers have to make a sudden brake,
leaving their heartbeat pounding for the next few minutes.. m0thafuckers!

as soon as mom got into the car we went for dinner at SPIZE.
i had prata cos i dint get what i wanted to get in the morning, thou it was meant for mom.
salty fish curry.

we headed home and i switched on MJ's video clip and started dancing.
mom said i should take dancing class if am really desperate. lol!

rushed to meet E.J juz to pass them money for phuket next year.
but ended up staying till 6 in the morning as we spent the wee hours watching paranormal activities which led to us sharing out bit of experiences about the OTHER THING!
we took pictures and crapped about anything we could laugh at.
but it was rearry funny.
then i realised how long ive not spent time with them since the last time things got a lil fuzzy between me and zul.

but hell oh well!
i got home and slept like there's no tmr.
i freaking miss tayloring my kebaya.
one is already torn and it feels a lil harder to zip up my kebaya nowadays.
i felt breathless most of the time..

then i realised that ive put on 3kg when E.J was weighing ourselves last night for no particular reason.

blearghhh!
i wont be able to make it till next week and it will take another 3 mths for it to be ready..
i will have to suffer till then. :(